We all have our fat days..

But Jeebs!

I have mentioned before I was a size 12 in past days, don't get me wrong this isn't "fat" but it did not suit me. I'm quite the short arse you would say!

I thought I would show you my size 12 days :) Can't keep you lot from a giggle!

(I'm breathing in pretty madly here haha)

(I'm sitting up very straight, look at those rolls!)

As you see, still me but with a bit more chunk-a-dunk!

Now I do have a bit of a story behind my weight :/ It's not the happiest! SO If you're already down or don't want to get down then you should possibly stop reading...

What a statement.. who the hell wants to get down... Quite the dafty Kirsty!

Anyway, I don't like to blame my past on the way I am now but it is probably connected in some way.

I arrived at high school a normal, happy, bubbly girl.. A tad shy but still friendly.

First day I find myself in a class with no-one from my last school... So I went up to the girls sitting in a group and said "Hi I'm Kirsty :)" To which they responded "Go away" :(

These girls (Just my luck) became the most popular of my year so decided to pick on the weird kid, moi... The whole school got hold of this and the general comments were "You're fat" Blah blah blah.. I wasn't.. but hey.

I would walk into my class and they would say "you're so ugly, kill yourself. I don't want to look at you" They would put plastic bags over my head and all would hold me down, I couldn't breathe and fainted a couple of times. I, of course got beaten cause the "bruises would make me look better" The girls would use the toilet then do the classic and shove my head down it...... Once they nailed my hands to the desk. Just general horrible stuff.. I had an awful time.. For a good 5 years and it got worse.. 

The only thing I thought I could change was my weight.. So I made myself sick.. a lot.

 I tried not eating but I'm too much of a greedy bugger haha! I did that for the majority of the five years.. I honestly didn't think there was a problem with it, but of course there was. I got very unhealthy and weak, I tore up my insides.. I was a mess. I spent a lot of time in hospital, they told me if I continue I probably wont be able to have children.. Strange for a young girl but that was what made me think the most.. 

On to the chunky lass!

This is of course when I stopped. I was told I would gain weight, as my body would grab on and store every little thing I swallowed, my metabolism had slowed right down.. I put on about 2 stone in a short amount of time... If I stuck to salads and everything It wouldn't of been so dramatic but like I said I'm a greedy bugger!

I was pretty disgusted with my self and slipped up a few times, I'm not going to lie I have slipped up in the last year also.. But I'm really getting better.. I'm learning how to manage my weight.

I honestly hated myself with a passion for so long, I wouldn't even look in a mirror and when I caught a glimpse I burst into tears. When I met Matt I thought there was no chance in hell someone like him would be attracted to me but still spoke to him.. I thought, well I'm probably never get to speak to a gorgeous man again so I'll enjoy it while it lasts! It then ended up pretty noicely as you know!

This blog alone has given me a massive confidence boost! So thank you to all you wonderful girls :) I'm sorry I've been so rubbish, I will pick up just everything in Scotland is going a bit mad! I'm still taking photos I'm just having difficulties!

Right well I'm off, Hope I didn't bore those who read on too much!

I hope you all have a lovely weekend :)

xx